To Do

Had a panic attack last night.

It’s the 2nd time in 6 days this has happened. I’ve got to calm down and take things one day at a time. So instead of freaking out about the things I have to get done over the next few weeks I’m going to list them here. Right now.

1. Deliver down payment of tuition to Capilano by the 31st ($500)
                        -Find out tuition for the first year as well
2. Quit JJ Bean ( It’s just time, 2 years serving coffee is too much)
3. Get a new job
4. Visit Colin’s group home (Potential employment helping at risk young adults)
5. Apply for student loans
6. Apply for Aboriginal bursary
7. Design website for your own design (The Northerner)
8. Edit christmas photo’s
9. Edit tour photo’s
10. Get whiskey jack + dogwood flower tattoo
11. Get motorcycle by last month of summer
12. Design freestyle survivor poster
13. Design cousin’s business stationary
14. End twitter account participation with Funky’s
15. Get a haircut (Trim)
16. Receive Metis Status Card
17. Learn to cook better food
18. Take more photo’s
19. Write music

These aren’t in a particular order, but they are all things I want to do in the next few months. It’s a little overwhelming, but do-able.

 

 

Puzzling

Did you ever notice.

How well we fit?
Maybe it was just me, but I never felt more comfortable.
I mean that in the most literal sense possible.
Sprawled out amidst that ocean of sheets, it seemed effortless.
Easy.
You fit just like a puzzle piece.

I could use that right now.

Sometimes I feel crazy when I write things like this. Then I remember, I never hid anything before. Why start now.

This is a photograph I took. It’s where I grew up. That is all.

Cartoon.

A good day today. A real day. Park beers, hash, and A&W. On a scale of 1 – 10 I would say it was awesome. I come home and now it’s “my” time. I’m into it. I really didn’t expect this. Blogging almost everyday. Vomiting out my thoughts and feelings for the world to see. I’m still careful, but I’ve decided that I’m always going to write what I feel. It’s freeing, simple, honest. Thing’s that I think are all very special, and mandatory. Anyway.

I see this every night. I didn’t draw it, my room mate did. It reminds me of you.

The Gentlemen Thieves

A poster I recently did for the Cobalt to promote their upcoming show with “The Gentlemen Thieves”. Originally I had a much more elaborate plan, but after fighting with it for what seemed forever I simply took the essential elements and built a clean, simple poster. I’m into it.

Nitemoves

This is the drummer from both “Tycho” and “Com Truise” and he just released his own album. I’m very into it. Going into the arsenal for music I listen to while designing. Click here —>Nitemoves and it will take you to his sound cloud page.

This*

Whatever this is. I’m into it.

-Joshua 

Wake Up Call.

There was no way I would have rather woken up this morning. Then to your call.

 Real Talk.

University.

I woke up today with a set of idea’s of how I thought the next couple of months are going to turn out. I was focused, determined, and hopeful. It was raining outside, windy, and cold. Not the typical everyday May afternoon. As I walked by the front door as I often do I remembered my Metis status card and how it should be arriving any day now. Going up the stairs I had no expectation that it would there. I opened up the mailbox and investigated. A letter had come for me, but not from the Metis Nation, instead it was from Capilano University.

A while back I applied to enter the iDEA program at Capilano with the full knowledge of the possibility of me getting in would be a long shot to say the least. But I did anyway. I had left my application portfolio to the last minute as always and after a string of late nights and early mornings I had finished it. My mother, who was in town visiting along with my father, was a great help. Upon arriving at Capilano my mother and I put the finishing touches on the portfolio. We dropped it off and I got panicky, as I do in a lot of high pressure situations and walked away not knowing if I would even receive a call back for an interview.

It was the first time I chose to smoke in front of my mother.

A week later I was contacted for an interview. I called my mother. “JOSH! THAT’S GREAT!!!” was her response, but in a motherly pride that was both jovial, and loving. Almost like the way a father would smack the back of his son after he hit a home run at the ballpark. I told her that she shouldn’t get too excited because the chances of me getting in were still small. I still needed to under go a face to face interview, a creative thinking test, a language proficiency exam, and an observed still life drawing.

Daunting… I thought I bombed all of them but the interview.

Back to the beginning. I ripped open the envelope and read the first line, and the first line only. “I am pleased to inform you that you are a successful candidate for the three-year IDEA diploma program. Congratulations!”. I looked up, took a deep breath and rushed off to work. I couldn’t even process it. All these idea’s I had only minutes before  that seemed so concrete are now…well, now they are important.

I can’t believe I got in. Booyah!

-Joshua

 

Click this link to get a look at some former students work. It’s the grad site.

http://www.idea11.ca/

This is what I was doing while writing this post. Life win? I think so.

Fact*

My bed looked much better when you were in it.

Real talk.

This.

I’m blogging now. This wasn’t intentional. I have gone out so much these last couple of days. Celebrating a special human. I wouldn’t change it for anything but wow does it take an effect on ones bank account. Anyway, enough blabbering. Real talk.

Over these last three weeks I feel like I’ve grown an exponential amount. It wasn’t intended but it happened. I guess you could call it a “Man Up” experience. I’ve sorted out a part of my puzzle. Enough of this sleazy bullshit you east vaners covet so much. I’m over it. I saw something real, now that’s my jam. It’s a crazy thing, today was wild. So many emotional up’s and down’s but it was a roller coaster I needed to ride. I feel better, cleaner, in touch with what matters. It’s so fucking strange. It’s like making a wish that you never thought would come true in a million years, and it just so happens that it comes true. Crazy. I’ve learned more about myself in the last 3 weeks then I have in the last 5 years. Life rules. Get high, go think, kick life’s ass. 

-Joshua